Sukanya Miguel shed tears as she talked with her father who had been searching for 50 years.

Have you met your father yet?

Miguel : Actually, I’ve seen my father for about 3 years now, meaning I haven’t seen him since I was born. I searched for my father until I found him. It’s something God gave us. It took us 50 years to find it. Knowing is knowing. We know we have a father. It didn’t come out of the bamboo tube. But I don’t know what his father’s name is. I don’t know what kind of race we are. I had never seen my father’s face before. My face looks like someone else’s.

The moment we found out that this man really was our father?

Miguel : There are so many people. You can go search and look, you’ll quickly find each one with a similar style. Then you’ll receive confirmation from your half-sister that this is his father. I have lived with my grandparents since I was little. P’Gail was born in Rayong, so his mother carried him away from Rayong Hospital because she didn’t have money to pay for the birth. My mother took me to Nakhon Sawan with my grandparents when I was a child. I also asked my grandmother who my father is, where my father is, what is his foreign face, who is my father? Grandma said that my father is a foreigner, not a mangosteen. He didn’t know how to answer. I only know that your nose is like your father’s. My nose doesn’t look like my mother’s, that’s all. I really don’t know about the other parts because it really doesn’t look like my father’s.

Is it a problem in your heart?

Miguel : When we were teased that we were orphans Or teased that he is a child with no father or mother. After the Vietnam War The half-breed was definitely an orphan, but there was a time when he was about 5-6 years old and it was clear that he wanted to find him. Grandma said you have parents. But he wasn’t there. We went to look for the picture that was in Mom’s crate. Which one should be my father? There are a lot of foreigners. Each one is my mother’s boyfriend. We don’t know which one anymore. It’s like there’s something telling us. It was a Christmas card sent from my mother in Italy. It is a picture of Jesus and there is sound. It’s like someone said it’s okay. This person is also the father. So it became warm inside. I don’t feel like I’m missing my father. Because we view God as our Father.

From the question I’ve been searching for in my heart since childhood, when I’m 50 years old and I meet my father, will the problem go away?

Miguel : It’s gone. Previously, there were children who didn’t know what their family ancestry was. Children who don’t know who their parents are, as long as they know, peace of mind will come. But like P’Gail’s Lucky to live with grandparents But there is a feeling that we are rootless. We don’t know who he is or what he looks like. He seems lost. One day I realized that he had not lost yet. he is still alive Then I learned that he was ready to meet us. always want to see us It’s like his heart is full. From the clefts, it’s all fluffy. It’s very powerful. P’Gail always says that family is the source of strength. It’s a feeling of being fulfilled, it’s not broken, it’s warm inside. Some children blame themselves for not wanting us in this world. This word is harsh. When people know that children are orphans, first of all, they should not insist that their parents were like this or that. And you shouldn’t ask questions about where your parents are. Or if you are an orphan and have friends who are orphans You shouldn’t ask where the roots of the era are. Because those things become stabbing needles. Because he doesn’t know how to find the answer. He himself didn’t know the answer.

There was a time when P’Gail wanted to leave this world as well?

Miguel : I’ve been there many times. Because I feel like I don’t want to take care of myself, I don’t love myself, I feel like I’m not wanted. There is no need to take care of yourself. It’s like we’re the one thing that no one wants. So we don’t love ourselves. and piled up on myself Since adolescence The last time is before the divorce. This is the last time

How can you come back?

Miguel : When you intend to do it There is often a reason or someone coming to warn us that we should look at it in a different way, making suggestions, or diverting our thoughts. I don’t know who sent it either. And another thing is that there will be a voice in your head that says There’s something unresolved. It’s not over yet. It’s not over yet. must be accomplished I don’t know what it is. It’s strange. It’s like something is waiting that hasn’t been completed yet. Not now

I have to thank myself for not leaving this world. Because otherwise I won’t be able to see my father?

Miguel : Yes, if you decide or not listen to anything at that time stubborn to go There will never be an opportunity like this. Second, regret will happen to the child. With people who love us very much, with the thought that we don’t love ourselves, that’s it.

Happy today I also met my father. Many people ask if we don’t know who our family is. And we want to go find it. The starting point is to search for Father. So how did you meet him?

Miguel : At first, I thought that we would never meet again in this life. We probably don’t have any factors to look for. Because I don’t know the name I don’t know my last name, I don’t have a picture. I thought about asking about the American Veterans Department. But we don’t have a picture. Zero everything Until the year my son was born My son has wavy hair that isn’t like mine. We say, who does this kid look like? I was curious like my father, so I called and talked to my mother in Italy and said, Calley, did you give me a name or something? Mom said no, it’s a surname. At that time, there was Google, so I just searched for it and just said my last name. of Irish descent Just now I know the roots. Just this makes me happy. I didn’t intend to search to the point of doing a DNA test. The story is about marrying P’Jom in 2019. P’Jom and P’Gail Same mother’s name So we have to prove first whether they are siblings or not. And there’s also an older sister who’s missing. Now I’ve found it too. They also arranged a DNA test at the same lab (laughs).

When they got married, they checked first to make sure they weren’t siblings. So I went to get a DNA test?

Miguel : Yes, a half-breed friend brought boxes of DNA tests from America to resell. We bought 2 boxes, spit on them, and the friend carried them to send to America. Because this lab doesn’t deliver to Asia, we waited almost 2 weeks and the results came out. For P’Jom Salivai (laughs), the results didn’t come out, but P’Gail’s came out in a rage. Our DNA matched with a lot of people, more than 19,000 people. Our DNA matched with our family tree, roots from our relatives. It came out that there were many names. But we don’t know which one. There will be a note, the name Michael Kim Calley, underneath it will be written that if you are not a parent then you are a child. That’s all, I think that’s it.

Do you want to contact me?

Miguel : No, I don’t dare to go on. I don’t know if he’s ready to meet us or not. Because most of the American soldiers who came Had a child without predicting that he would have one. Each person has their own problems. When he moved back One thing I do know is that he’s not dead yet. We didn’t dare contact him and say I was there. Go contact your grandson. Go around there (laughs) and tell me that’s my name. live in this country I assume you are my relative? In summary, the younger sister is the child of different fathers and mothers. Write in this lab message: I think you and I should be relatives. I’m so happy. We found our little sister. Then write back that I have this address, this email, and this Facebook. Let’s wait and see if he’s interested in talking to us. It turned out that the younger sister contacted me again, and it was a long conversation with the younger sister for 1 year. The father didn’t have an email address. I am an old person. Dad doesn’t use a cell phone. Very anti-technology When my sister visits We asked if she had told him that she had met me yet. Her younger sister and younger brother didn’t dare talk to their father about this. Because not everyone has ever heard from the father that he has a child living in Thailand. Foreigners respect each other. If he didn’t open it, he didn’t dare. He considered it a very private matter. His younger sister thought that his father might not want to hear it, that he might have forgotten about it or not. After a year passed, his younger brother left, and he said that this time, try telling his father. that you found me It appears that he went immediately. My sister-in-law said I heard him say he didn’t want to talk about it. Anger arose. We have to talk. I asked to stay with my sister-in-law. Submit as an article You can get the book. I would like to tell you everything that I have in my own life. And finally, if you don’t want to talk about these things, that’s fine with me. But don’t say it’s your fault until you die. Because what happened is not your fault. Please just know this. Then my stepmother contacted me via Facebook.

Today you will hear the voice and face of Miguel’s father at the same time. Father is on the line?

Michael : hi hello it’s late here

How was the first day you talked with your child?

Michael : I’m very happy and scared because we didn’t grow up together.

How to prepare to meet each other?

Michael : I can’t wait. (Father says he can speak a little Thai.)

Miguel : (Wipes tears)

Is there anything you want to say to Brother Miguel?

Michael : He is an important person, looking for 50 years as well.

Father has also been looking for Brother Miguel, following him for 50 years?

Michael : Yes, which is difficult.

Miguel’s father is now Plans for Miguel’s son There’s a school there. Grandfather will let Brother Miguel and his son go live there. He is prepared to wait and do his best for his grandchild?

Miguel : Be prepared to wait for more than a year.

Michael : Really (speaks Thai)

Does Thania want to go?

Thania : I want to go. I want to see my grandfather.

Michael : I want to see you soon.

Thania : I really want to hug you.

Michael : You must have long arms (laughs).

What do you want to tell your father?

Miguel : If we go, we will be together forever until our last breath. Foreigners don’t think like us. But Thai people think like this. The first word I’ve been waiting for Instead of explaining this and that. He sent a sound clip to say hello. Brother Gale was in tears. That he had been here He stayed for a long time. He came when he was 18-19. He stayed with Gail’s mother for a long time. Until P’Gail was in his mother’s womb for 6 months, he was called back. He brought things back because he knew he had a child. But during that time, Thailand had already abolished its military bases. So I couldn’t come back.

Are you thinking of moving permanently?

Miguel : P’Gail is Thai. Now I have dual nationality, Thai as well as American. This is my mother land. That is my father’s land. It’s probably like this.

This time, we’ll be together there, like in a drama?

Miguel : The water was also polluted before the DNA test. We are trying to find which Calley, if we look for him and he is no longer alive like many people’s fathers, that is sad, but at least we know who he is. Brother Gale thinks that even if he is no longer in this world, Brother Gale will go find him at the hole. If he’s not alive, you have to go see him. But it’s better now. Because he is still alive and very strong and knows that he did not go because he did not want you. It’s like I’ve felt since I was little that he hasn’t abandoned us.

Recently, P’Miguel and P’Jom broke up?

Miguel : I didn’t quit.

What status?

Miguel : We do not have the same registration as men and women. We didn’t break up, but we lowered our status from lovers to friends as before. But we are still the same family. living in the same house Everything stays the same.

Jom : If you cry, please help wipe away the tears. It’s like we saw Miguel’s life from the beginning until now. Chom feels that first he was a friend and then he became a lover. When we become lovers, we suddenly become unlovable. We are good at being nosy. We don’t want to lose. One day it’s like a jigsaw puzzle that’s been put together.

Miguel : We try not to let it break. It’s better than dragging each other’s status until we hate each other. This is his idea. When they are a couple, everyone has different expectations. He expected Brother Gale to be sweeter. Because I’m normally a stubborn person. Brother Gale expected that she would be as organized as me. When we keep expecting too much, there will only be negatives. We don’t want them to be negative. Because we intended to be a family forever. We brought back our friend status.

Jom : We’re the best of friends.

Miguel : As friends, we leave room for you to make mistakes.

Let each other be independent. Including if there are other people, is it possible?

Miguel : Really want him to have it. Each person wants the other person to have it.

Jom : Actually, Jom doesn’t want to have it, but wants him to be happy.

Miguel : P’Jom thinks a lot that I’ll go with my son there.

Living together, but thinking that if we were independent When we’re far away from each other, we won’t have to worry. But are we always ready to be here waiting?

Jom : Yes, the family is big. Once you’re friends No more jealousy It’s love that wants to see him happy. It sounds very good (laughs). I still love him from the beginning to this day. When you’re friends, you dare to speak, you dare to shout, but he’s cute.

Miguel : When P’Jom asked to be friends P’Gail asked the reason. When I asked the reason, he said that there was only one thing that I would not accept. is to ask to leave the family After all, it must be the same family. Other than that, I accept everything.

Jom : They will take care of each other until they are old.

What day is tomorrow?

Miguel : He has been with Ma Mi for 15 years. Tomorrow is Thania’s birthday. (The program gives a cake to Nong Thania) I wish for my child to be strong. Have complete financial consciousness As each year grows, your child will gradually become an adult. You don’t have to worry about having to take care of Ma Mi. The main thing that I want is for you to take care of your own life to survive. To be able to fight with the future world

Jom : May your child be strong Both physical strength and encouragement Has wisdom in both worldly and religious matters and is a good child.

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